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Finding the Light

A young man finding his way

Guilty/Table of Contents
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So, today biggercity.com decided to feature this blog. I feel a bit guilty not because of the attention, but because i haven't written anything lately that could be counted as showing "a talent for analyzing and defining the chub and bear community. His writing is among the most insightful you'll find on the ins and outs of being a chaser, combined with his great wit as he accounts his daily life."

But i've offered more content in the past:

the Theory tag has much of the heavy lifting in my LJ.
the Boys tag has exactly what you expect - me talking about boys.
the Gay tag has some of the gay-centered theory stuff.
the Chaserdom tag is growing, but will take time as i go through old post and re-tag.
the Writing tag has some of the meatier things i've written.
The Movies tag has movie reviews, or at least my version of reviews, which end up more like thoughts spurred by movies.
the Portraits tag has much of the pretty people i've met/photographed.
the Dreaming tag has much of the wierdness in my head.
The random pictures are here for you, For No Reason.
I try to keep track of my memories; they sometimes lead to things.

and of course this page is useful for seeing all the things i've tagged.

This entry will update regularly, soon.

a recap of my life via posts/travel/boys/and allCollapse )
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Mike/BigRed, Indy, 2011

Originally uploaded by walkthelight.

HD Kiss & HD Ginger
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Random D7000 video
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Clark, 1/2 or the World's Finest


Three Movies
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The King's Speech.

Ah, wide angle lenses. Aren't they beautiful? They do things to a room, be it keep everything in focus or exaggerate the center of the frame. Honestly, they usually just make everything feel huge and epic. And so here is a little story, made epic by both the way it has been photographed and by the performances within it. Colin Firth is amazing in showing an interesting man, not a man of interesting circumstances. King George VI is suddenly someone I want to learn more about, and not just about his stammer. But about how a man can see the difference between what is expected of you, what you want, and what you can become. This is a little movie, in that it tells a story about a specific time and place and a specific problem. But it is told so well, that it is captivating to watch, and leaves you feeling so satisfied.

The Black Swan.

This is quite a work. A metaphor about female sexuality? A parable of what ladies go through as they pass from girl to woman? About how art is the most destructive way to seek perfection? About the way people, especially women, are controlled by both other people and by society's impossible expectations - how they must be pure and fragile, but able to be menacing and powerful?

This movie is anchored by Natalie Portman's performance, but there is also the masterful work of Darren Aronofsky in keeping all the pieces, all the themes, all the ideas moving in a riveting manner. The ballet sequences are the best i've seen since The Red Shoes (and it's hard not to compare the two films), the city stuff feels wonderfully familiar and edgy, the relationships (Nina and Lily, Nina and her mother, Nina and Tomas, Nina and herself) are all so rich and no one in the film gives a bad performance somehow - Winona Ryder is all brittle and poignant, Barbara Hershey is well...Barbara Hershey and an incredibly compelling stage mom at that - notice how the character interacts with no one but her daughter and yet seems to hang everywhere. Vincent Cassel makes a thankless role into one filled with the good type of questions, and Mila Kunis - oh goodness does she have "it."

Everything goes at full throttle...in a movie about pressure, ballet and self-awareness. Oh, and it's incredibly sexy, in that psychological peel back the bedcovers way that we like in our films. Oh, and Natalie Portman is the best female actress in her generation. There. I said it.

Tron: Legacy

Oh so pretty. And with a rocking soundtrack. And a great mess of ideas. A mess of one, not a mix of one. A mix would imply a recipe, and this film feels more like it was thrown together. Well, the non-design portions - everything that has design in the name (art design, set design, sound design, costume design, graphic design) is brilliant, but the script? Not so much. All i need to ask is the fate/point of Dillinger's son - the man with the answers who never shows up again. Although not like the huge plot holes in movies like "The Big Sleep", it also doesn't charm it's way out of including characters that don't need to exist and/or robbing other characters of their plot-arc moments. There is clearly much more to the movie than what we see - who is Dillinger's son calling in the first act when he stops the computer from crashing - if Quorra is who we learn she is, then who are the guys in that bar who clearly share her goal, what was Clu's "private initiative" mentioned by others, and my main question - what will Sam do if he takes over his dad's company.

These are questions that should have been answered or should never have been asked; i'd guess a product of a script that went through many alterations and may have lacked fine-tuning - there really is no need for the Sam-foil character in the beginning...unless there is more that we didn't see.
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SideTrack

D7000-19.jpg, originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

Belmont
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Belmont, 2010

D7000-16.jpg, originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

lake
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Lake Michigan, 2010

D7000-14.jpg, originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

Clark
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Superman, 2010

D7000-13.jpg, originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

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D7000-2.jpg, originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

couldn't do this before.


Nude
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Malt, 2010

Originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

New Camera
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I bought a D7000.
I shot the following pics today with my 28mm f/2.8 lens. I shot most of them at high ISO because thats why i got the camera. This was with very minimal post-work (color temp, exposure, black level, but literally 5-10 seconds a photo.)
To give you an idea, I rarely went over ISO 400 on my previous camera and never over ISO 800.

ISO 100 f/2.8 1/60sec
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ISO 1250 f2/8 1/100sec
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ISO 6400 1/125sec, f/8.0
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ISO25,600 f/18 1/80sec
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What? I'm supposed to say something.


Rough night
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Rough, 2010

When you spend time with Kendall, you have to be prepared to follow him into the bathroom.



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Rough 2, 2010


Originally uploaded by walkthelight.

Back in Time
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Way Back, 2008

Originally uploaded by walkthelight.


Holding
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Hold It, 2010



Originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

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arm/legend, 2010</p>

Originally uploaded by walkthelight.
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Ben, 2010

Ben or deafbear76 on b411



Originally uploaded by walkthelight.
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Midwest Bearfest 2010
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Good Times.



Adam, 2010
Adam, or billybobhuckaby on b411

Originally uploaded by walkthelight.


Crumbs
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Waiting For Crumbs, MPLS, 2010



Originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

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Blurry Paul, 2010</p>Originally uploaded by walkthelight.



Joseph/John
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J/J, MPLS, 2010

Originally uploaded by walkthelight.
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Fancy
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Fancy, MPLS 2010



Originally uploaded by dLion Photography.

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Halfway through the video i realized i knew this dude...and always thought he was very cute, and now...i kind of want to marry him.

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